It's just sex and violence melody and silence

xkriss @ 2009-10-13T19:55:00

2009-10-13T23:56:23Z

i got on bring me the horizon's tourbus. just sayin'
i'll elaborate at some point...

xkriss @ 2009-10-03T13:50:00

2009-10-03T17:51:27Z

i haven't written in forever. oops.

xkriss @ 2009-08-25T23:44:00

2009-08-26T04:28:06Z

"believe that you will be just fine"

gotta love when graffiti says something like that.

xkriss @ 2009-08-15T01:44:00

2009-08-15T05:45:38Z

i'm loved.
my heart is whole.
i am happy...

xkriss @ 2009-08-08T16:36:00

2009-08-08T20:36:59Z

(413): All I seem to do lately is get myself off, take naked pictures and drink beer. I don't know if thats a good or bad thing.

ha, yep....

xkriss @ 2009-07-20T01:51:00

2009-07-20T06:11:59Z

i went back and read some of my entries, and wow. i'm such a wishful thinker it's RIDICULOUS. i must sound like i'm in complete denial when i say all that kind of nonsense. i'm sure the people around me would love to smack some sense into me, but they don't want to hurt my feelings.

i'm not healthy...

xkriss @ 2009-07-16T00:40:00

2009-07-16T04:41:50Z

i went to pandora, and the first song it played was "tastes like ink." irony?

Writer's Block: Talking Ducks

2009-06-10T05:54:42Z

Happy birthday, Donald Duck! Which cartoon character do you think is the most disturbing?

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beavis and butthead always made me feel really uncomfortable.

xkriss @ 2009-06-01T13:16:00

2009-06-01T17:18:17Z

and isn't it stunning
how i'm gonna fall again
and isn't stunning
divine and fine to find myself
in your binds again
hopeless to no end
and isn't it stunning
how we both know
its gonna end

xkriss @ 2009-05-27T12:54:00

2009-05-27T17:10:38Z

a friend of mine wanted to build up her photography portfolio over the summer

what, you didn't know i was SUPER scene? hahaha

i was laughing. i think i look like a doofus, but everyone else seems to think it's cute.

xkriss @ 2009-05-14T11:01:00

2009-05-14T15:05:15Z

Repo! The Genetic Opera..... how did i miss this when it was in theaters? it is stupendous, and i have been listening to the soundtrack for days now.

xkriss @ 2009-05-11T14:28:00

2009-05-11T18:29:18Z

hi neglected journal. how are you?

xkriss @ 2009-04-02T01:36:00

2009-04-02T05:39:31Z

sometimes i feel completely and utterly alone. and for the most part i am. no one really gets me and i can't seem to open up to let them try. it's a vicious cycle that pushes more and more people away and keeps more and more people out.

i don't really know what to do anymore. at this point i don't think i can change. i'm stuck in my ways...

xkriss @ 2009-03-18T21:19:00

2009-03-19T01:22:44Z

You are full of determination and no one can stop you -- although they might try

that was my horoscope for today. i find it especially funny/ironic, because i had this burst of confidence and self assurance today. i'm ok. i've turned a corner. things are going to go my way.

xkriss @ 2009-02-08T22:41:00

2009-02-09T03:55:29Z

My heart is confused, but hopeful. I just need to keep believing that i'm going to get what i want and deserve. if i just keep thinking positive the rest will fall into place. i will be happy. i will be happy.

xkriss @ 2009-02-05T20:28:00

2009-02-06T04:30:08Z

i don't know. i'm completely unsure. i'm comfortably numb, and it feels good.

xkriss @ 2009-02-04T01:39:00

2009-02-04T13:39:25Z

one step forward. ten steps back.

xkriss @ 2009-02-03T16:14:00

2009-02-03T21:15:41Z

no matter how many more i get, that tattoo will always remain my favorite.

xkriss @ 2009-02-03T00:33:00

2009-02-03T05:34:22Z

i think i'm bipolar, or manic depressive, or whatever you'd like to call it.

xkriss @ 2009-02-02T18:55:00

2009-02-02T23:56:00Z

funny shit, man. FUNNY SHIT.

i still feel good.

xkriss @ 2009-01-29T23:02:00

2009-01-30T04:03:01Z

i don't know why, but i have this odd feeling deep down that things are going to start getting better for me.

xkriss @ 2009-01-27T21:53:00

2009-01-28T02:55:17Z

You know you're in a bad way when you start bawling at work, and your manager spends 10 minutes with you calming you down. At least i got sent home early...

xkriss @ 2009-01-26T23:39:00

2009-01-27T05:40:25Z

i'm completely broken.

xkriss @ 2009-01-20T19:27:00

2009-01-21T00:33:28Z

oh how quickly things change. up down up down. this down feels worse, because i was silly enough to believe the up was real, and that it would last. i was wrong. very wrong.

i really do need to start thinking with my head and not my heart. my tattoo could not be more meaningful to me right now. the heart IS deceitful above all things.

xkriss @ 2009-01-17T01:07:00

2009-01-17T06:08:05Z

if a week ago my heart was simply broken in half, it has now shattered into a million pieces.